My little cave of interesting happenings

Started at 3:47 PM

*yawn* O___o *blink* Oh.. *suddenly falls over* x_X *gets up* Yanno how I got up at 4 AM today? Well it bit me in the but.. I just woke up from sleeping all afternoon x3 I don't mind the sleeping, I think it's just funneh. I was just lying on my bed watching TV then suddenly -___- *snore* ZZZzzZzzzz <-- that happened. ^_^. Oh gawd... I'm turning into a teenager! xD

Oh yes, did I mention that my twin is Courteh_Bunneh ? No, I didn't. xD *points to av* Her normal account it lily0118 though o_o Check there if you want a more updated journal. Whoo... *falls over* X___x

o_______o I will now go off and sleep more, goodbye. -________- ZZZzzZZZZZzzz

Ended at 4:00 PM

Started at 5:53 AM

Right now if feel like so many things, it isn't funny.

I like this guy in my class. And I mean, come on, around this age people start getting crushes, so get off my back. Anyway, I want to tell my friends, but im not even shure if I can trust them. You see, the guy I like isn't even the cutest. I mean, he's cute to me, but some people think otherwise. I'm afraid if I tell them it will get out and everyone will know. Yet, If I don't tell him, he'll never know, and by 7th grade when we finally get out of this damn school, He'll probably meet a girl cuter than me, and I'll end up in tears. Why do I even try? I'm aware that he used to have a crush on me and still might, but I doubt it. I know that other boys have/had crushes on me, I can tell. I'm not ugly, but I'm not good at anything other than drawing and I suck at that. I'v started doubting my friends trustworthy-ness... I think my friends online are more trusted to me than anyone else. and the only people online I ever talk to are 2 friends I met on DeviantART maybe a year ago. What should I do.. Tell him and risk getting humiliated? Or Keep it to myself till I'm ready (Wich would probably be too late.). And please don't tell me to tell him, if you wouldn't yourself, okay? I don't like the fact people say things they wouldn't do themselves. I mean everyone can just say "Tell him, it isn't that hard" But could you really do it?

Other than that, I'm trying to go backpack hunting, I miss everyone so much I can't wait for school. Wich is so odd beacuse I had a shitty crap-tastic year. Half of it I stayed home being "sick", and I'm glad. Our teacher was one perverted messed up fuck, And guesse what. He was the first guy teacher I ever had. And if I ever get a guy again before highschool I'll die. Atleast in highschool you only have them for one class 5 times a week. Right now I have them all fucking day, 5 days a week. Sorry, I tend to swear alot when it comes to school. I'v stayed home all summer, I havn't been doing anything. up until now, I stayed home all summer. Seriously. I'm writing a story and Drawing, But I'm not uploading my good style. I think I'm pretty well giving up on DeviantART.

Finally, I might be taking a cartooning course by this guy who's been doing it for more than 30 years. Cool eh? I would creep into my mom's room and get the ad to get the name of the guy, but I'll get it later. Don't wanna wake her up.

[Verbal Acoustics]

I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin to keep my cool
I know it shows

I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it--yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind
If it ain't comin out we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it--yeah

[Verbal Acoustics]

I guess i'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

These things I'll never say

Ended at 6:31 AM